"yea,long time no see!What's new with you?during the days,many things have been happaned.lots of emotions fill into my mind and i become emotioal.
i think about my study,my life,my work,my family,my buddies,my school,school teachers,schoolmates.....and think about my future,my dream,my pressure....since the day i don't know.
when i thought about those anxious troubles,i fully feel scare but i know,i cant escape from the cruel truth,the fact i have to face it.anyway,i did.i skipped school last thursday and friday.i know,it s not the first i did.
last thursday,i got a terrible scare feeling when i woke up early.then i took a nap and woke up at seven fifty something.i feel scare again with little sickness.i have ever got this feeling since i was a student.however,i completely felt scare in that day morning.
so,...so i skipped school but i went out at eight as usual.i ate breakfast in mcdonald and stayed about two hours there.i walked along unconcernedly.i dont know why i didnt go to school,i dont know why i walked a lots and did something more and so myterious.if you were me,you would know what i feel but,but you wont.some one called and asked me the casue of skipping school,i couldnt tell anything cause i dont know the cause so.that one suggested me going to tst to see the sea for relaxing.
...finally,i did go.i went alone and walked alone,looked at the sea alone and felt much more lonely as well.i want to shout to the sea but i didnt casue i have no strength to shout.
i have no strenth to do anything in fact,even study.what happaned?i dont know so.
i wandered and wandered......
wandered and wandered......
who can send the signal to god for help me?
who can save me,who can help me?
i have listened lots but i am still so.it will be a big changing on me.i know those stuffs which were happaned on me were so unbelievable.what can i say?i am just a human!i am just a student!what s all you propose?many things are not fair in the world as i have seen but i couldnt do anything.maybe i am the one of them,casue i am just a human.dont force me too much!dont push me too much!i dont want to be here anymore,get it?let me! "
- Life Runner & Hopper